My Test.

      Yesterday started out pretty normal. I went out with my mom and had no worries about anything, but no matter how hard I focused, I couldn't get American Idol out of my head. I knew that they were going to be coming to Idaho Falls next Saturday; friends and family kept telling me I needed to do it, but I  shrugged it off. Finally I decided I was going to do it!! My decisiveness soon turned to confusion when I realized that the Tryouts would be the final day of Martin's Cove. SHOOT. Pretty soon I just decided that I was going to do the American Idol tryouts instead of Martin's Cove. Throughout the day I kept reassuring myself that American Idol was a once and a lifetime opportunity and I would regret it if I didn't take the chance and go. For some reason things about the trek kept popping up and I kept ignoring them. Things on Pinterest even told me that I needed to go!! ha ha  While I was cleaning the living room I found my list of supplies I would have to bring and I quickly covered it up and tried to forget about it. Later that day, I couldn't get the trek out of my head and it didn't feel right to miss it, but it was either that or chasing my dream. I soon realized I knew I was avoiding thinking about Martin's Cove when I was saying my prayers and steered away from the subject of whether or not I should go...because I already knew what the answer was. Trying to sleep became impossible with the two decisions flying around in my brain like two angry butterflies. I knew what I wanted to do and I knew what I needed to do, but somehow I couldn't bring myself to make the decision. At last resort, I decided to pick up an Ensign with the hope to find an answer...this is what popped up as soon as I started reading- " All members of the Church at some time in their lives face moments that test the sincerity and strength of their testimonies. How can we distinguish between truth and error? How can we avoid becoming like those who are "kept from the truth because they know not where to find it?  It is up to us whether we remain firm in our testimonies." At that point I knew and was just like, " OK I get it...I know what I need to do." In that moment I prayed and thanked Heavenly Father for being so patient with me and apologized for being so stubborn with his promptings. I'm so thankful that I was finally able to do what I knew was right and follow his promptings for me. I am so thankful that I was able to discern from " Truth and Error." After I changed my mind, I thought about my decision and found that I wasn't even upset that I wasn't trying out for American Idol anymore. I knew in that moment that I would've regretted not going to Martin's Cove even more. The spirit hit me pretty hard as I came to a realization. If the pioneers had to sacrifice everything to leave and go on their journey, why wouldn't I have to sacrifice something too? Why wouldn't I also have to have a trial of my faith and testimony? Even if I tried out, I would only be able to do THAT because they start taping the actual show the same time I would start school and they wouldn't end taping until after Anthony comes home so I would miss it that too. I wanted to do it just to say I did, but what is one day of singing in front of judges compared to 4 days growing closer with Heavenly Father and the people you love??  I learned so much yesterday and I'm so happy I was able to make the right decision with Heavenly Fathers help...He is always here to guide us when we don't know which road to turn onto. Trust in Christ and he will never lead you wrong. He knows us better than we know ourselves and knows what is best for us when we're not sure what to do. We just have to listen to what he's trying to tell us.  I could've followed what I've dreampt about since I was a little girl, but I decided to follow my other dream.... Looking up at Heavenly Father and listening to him say,  " Well done , good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy Lord."