I'll Praise You in this Storm!

Today has been wonderful! I got my homework done but not before I procrastonated by taking the time to bond with my guitar first. I sat on my couch in my empty apartment, my fingers strummed the familiar rhythm on the strings as a sweet melody filled the air. I closed my eyes and let myself get lost in it. Music has helped me through so much in my life and I'm afraid if I wasn't able to sing or play the guitar I would feel a deep purpose lost in my life and I would feel the empty void of something missing. There have been times in my life where I honestly don't know how I would've come out of it. If it wasn't for my testimony of this gospel and music I don't think I would have made it. Now when you put those two things together, the gospel and music, you have something truly beautiful and inspiring. One of my favorite bands is called "Casting Crowns." Sometimes I can't listen to their music without tearing up or feeling the overwhelming sense of love and comfort from my Heavenly Father and the times that he has carried me through the storms of my life. Even though they're not a LDS band, their words are so deep and profound that you can't just listen for a second...it grabs your heart and makes you want to listen until its done and then over and over again.

I remember waking up the morning that Anthony left feeling the most heartbreak I've ever had to feel before. I thought that was hard until I was diagnosed with a disease that would lower my chance of having children and changed how I would have to live my life.. my world crashed around me. After that I had to fight anxiety, depression, low self worth, loss of identity, and loss purpose. It was even harder because Anthony wasn't here,and he has always been my rock. I really didn't know how much I could take....When I heard "Praise You in This Storm" By Casting Crowns I remember standing there frozen and completely overwhelmed...this song touched me so deeply and it was through it that I got some of my strength and courage back. It was through this song that I was reminded that Heavenly Father loves me and knows what I'm going through. He gives us trials so we can grow and become more like him. Sometimes it take heartbreak to bring us closer to Christ and its trials that helps us know and understand that he has a plan for us..we just need to trust him even when it isn't the plan that we had for ourselves and we're scared... Music will forever be such a blessing in my life and I am so thankful for this song that got me through so much and helps me every day....No matter what is going on in my life, no matter how many trials I have to go through...I will ALWAYS praise him in the storm. Christ is with us through the crashing thunder, the raging winds, the rain, and the fog that threatens to swallow us when things feel too difficult for us to handle. Christ will always be there to show us that we are strong enough and we will get through it because he never leaves us...

ESPECIALLY IN A STORM.