A Week of New Beginnings!!!

At least once a year, my family takes a road trip to California. One of my favorite things about going to Cali is, you guessed it, the beach. I love the sea salt breeze that comes off of the ocean waves and the feeling of the sand between my toes. More than that I love the time that I get to think about what I want out of life; my goals, my dreams, and the experiences and trials that I've had that have made me stronger. Even hearing the waves gives me more clarity than I would have in a regular setting, it just calms me down. You might be wondering why I'm telling you this but today I had one of those moments. I was able to think and ponder about everything with a clear head and an open heart like I would be able to if I were on a beach listening to the ocean tide. A couple of years ago my family and I took Anthony on a trip to Lake Michigan. Being able to experience that peace and clarity with Anthony was so special to me. We left right as the sun was setting. I couldn't help but look back.....

 

 

Today I was reminded of how much Heavenly Father has blessed me in life through other people and through experiences where I've had to believe in myself to be able to move foward. While pondering all of the many blessings in my life I was also reminded of the things that I need to improve on. Throughout this semester of college I've thought to myself, "I'm doing my best" but am I really? Am I really doing my best? Even though I feel like I've been working hard I have the feeling that I'm still not giving my all in everything that I do. Since I've been up on BYU-I campus I've succeded in a couple of things-

• Making morning prayer a habit
• finding service oppertunities
• Reading my scriptures
• Doing well in my classes

Even though I've been doing good in these areas I still want to do better and be better. I'm doing well in my classes but am I really putting enough effort into them? I also make sure to read my scriptures daily but recently I've been forgetting more than I should. While I'm getting better in so many aspects I'm also not doing well in others. So after thinking about all of this today, I'm making this week a week of new beginnings!!! These are the things that I am going to focus on improving. I'm trusting my gut in the sense that if I discipline myself with accomplishing these goals and gettting back on track that I will be happier and were I should be physically, mentally, and spiritually. So here are the things that I need to improve!-

• Remembering to read my scriptures before I go to bed and when I wake up
• Going to bed early enough to be able to "Rise Early" and start my day right
• Making sure I make the time (no matter how much homework I have) to get a good workout in each day
• Doing the absolute best in my classes instead of doing "just enough to get by."
• Focusing on my health needs and remembering what I can and can't eat.
• Staying positive no matter how stressfull my day is
• Remembering to search for God's hand in my life.
• Stay away from anything that is going to bring me down.

You may think that there's a lot of goals there to improve on but I feel like this is sincerily what I need to be the best that I can be and how I will be able to make the best out of having Polycystic Ovarian Desease. Some of the main factors of this desease is that stress very harmful to me and my body, (moreso than a normal person), have insulin spikes, and not workout. If I acomplish these goals (Which I will) I will be less stressed, happier, and I will be taking care of myself how I should have been this whole time. I haven't been giving my all. This has weighed down on me because I know with all of my heart that If we are doing our best that Heavenly Father will help us and make up the difference. Today when I realized that I wasn't doing my absolute best in what is required of me to stay healthy, do well in school, and stay close to Christ, I knew I had to do something because right now I am hindering myself and I'm not letting Heavenly Father influence my life or help me in the ways that he wants to and needs to. I want him to know that I am doing all that I can with what he has given me so he knows how greatful I am for all that I have including my disabilities. I am so greatful and feel so blessed for all that he has given me.

I feel so excited to start my new week and put things in motion!!! I know I can do this and I'm not going to let anyone (including myself) hold me back. I don't want to just "DO," I want to "BECOME."