One of the best days of my life!!!

                                  We all have day's in our lives that change everything around us, how we think, how we view ourselves, and how we view the world. Christmas was one of those days for me. Before Christmas morning I hadn't seen Anthony in 7 months and even though I tried, calming my nerves became an impossibility as I sat with my family and waited for Anthony to call on Skype. Finally the moment came! As I walked into the kitchen fighting back tears, my heart felt like it might beat out of my chest...I couldn't believe the moment had finally come. We all gathered around the computer so excited to see him!

When I heard his voice for the first time in 8 months I felt like thousands of weights were lifted off of my shoulders and I was home again. For the first time in so long I felt completely calm and happy:) It was such an amazing feeling, he has always had a way of helping me come to myself more than anyone else. Soon it was our turn to have our time with each other. As my family and his left the kitchen my heart began to beat a little faster and I couldn't believe what was happening, but as soon as I sat down and faced the computer I was Looking at the love of my life who just happened to be looking right back at me! We couldn't have been happier and were trying to convice ourselves that it was actually real.

Talking to him was indescribable and so effortless. I was talking to my best friend, my soul mate and I was right where I was meant to me. We talked and laughed like we had just talked for hours the day before. It was like no time had passed and I can't even put into words how happy I was to be in that moment with him. Being able to hear him say "I love you" brought tears to my eyes as I said "I love you too." After only seeing it written on sheets of paper, being able to hear it and say it was so beautiful and it felt amazing...It was like being able to tell each other how much we love each other made our love grow even deeper. It means so much more when you aren't able to hear it or say it often, especially to the person you love most. I just can't even begin to describe how it felt. We talked for a little bit and then in his cute english accent he asked, "Will you sing for me?" Fortunetly I was already a step ahead and had a song prepared just for him. I let him know that I had giant calluses on my fingers from practicing so I would be good enough to learn a song for him.

And then, with overgrown butterflies in my stomach, I started to sing....

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Since I was paying close attention to the chords on my guitar I didn't notice the expression on his face :) He always seems to look at me like that when I'm not paying attention...but  I love it when he does. That look melts my heart even when I don't notice it right away...It reminds me that I have someone that truly loves me for me and appreciates the small things like me singing for him. When I was done he said it was beautiful and the best Christmas present he could've ever gotten :) He told me how good he's been doing and that he wished I could be witnessing the miracles that were happening all around him. I smiled as he talked with conviction about how much he loved his mission. It meant so much to me to hear him so excited about something that he loves so much.  We talked for a little longer and he told me how much he loved me and that I was so beautiful. It was amazing because for the first time in too long I actually felt beautiful and I believed it as it came out of his mouth..when I'm with Anthony I am able to be my quirky goofy self without second guessing because he loves me for who I am; quirks, crooked smile, and all. Then he got a more serious look on his face and told me that a package was coming my way and inside it would be a little Wooden box.

He told me that before I opened the box, that I needed to think of the Count of Monte Cristo. I was curious because that had been "OUR" movie for forever, but I knew right away what would be in the special box. He told me that he had been wearing a peice of twine around his ring finger and that in the box there would be a piece of twine for me to tie around my finger until he could replace it with something else when he got home.

 I just sat there in awe and tried not to cry...... it was obvious that he had just told me I was so happy and my brother's jaw-dropped face in the backround was priceless. It was really hard to say goodbye and afterwards his grandma held me as I cried, but we both were so happy that in a way it wasn't so hard. We knew we didn't have long until we'd be together again. As we looked at eachother, smiled, and said I love you...We didn't say goodbye, we said, "I'll see you soon." Those six words held more meaning than anything we have ever said to eachother. When I was looking at him I wasn't just looking at the most amazing, loving, handsome man that I had ever met, I was looking at my eternal companion. I was smiling at the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. The person who I want to be holding my hand when I'm old and grey...the person who I would wait forever for if I had to. I was looking at the man who's smile brightens my world and makes everything around me beautiful. These 5 months that are left seem like nothing now!! Before I know it the moment will come when I will be able to run into his arms after two years and know in my heart that I will never have to let him go again. This Christmas was lifechanging. It was so much different than skyping Anthony last Christmas because our feelings and love for eachother have grown so much deeper and stronger.

Through these next 5 months I am going to hold onto how it felt to hear his voice and the special moments that we shared together through those short 45 minutes. When you've found the person who's meant for you...you will make the sacrifices needed to be with them. these 18 months have been a sacrifice yes, but they have also been one of the most amazing blessings I have ever recieved and the most beauitful journey I have ever been on. I wouldn't take it back for anything even though I can't wait for our two years to be up!!!

That night I found a song that described how I feel pefectly and what this waiting experience has been like for the both of us.

 

I thought all of the surprises were over until the most unexpected thing happened when I got home.

My parents told me I couldn't look...

 And then they uncovered my eyes....

 

My dad couldn't even look at me because he was crying too...it was emotional moment for the both of us.

 

I opened it up and it was one of the most beautiful thing's I have ever seen.

 I was SHOCKED.

 

IT WAS A 93 WESTERLY GUILD GUITAR!!!!! :) These aren't even made any more and it sounds so beautiful and warm. Between this guitar and being able to see the love of my eternity..it was the best christmas of my entire life.