My "I'm Still Waiting" College Plan.

                 Okay, lets face it. BYU-I isn't called "BYU- I DO" for nothing. I'm not saying that engagements or wedding plans happen there every day or anything (maybe they do) but its no secret that many students who go there not only go with the hopes of getting a better education and future, but also with the hopes of finding an Eternal Companion. And lets just say that when it comes to my guy friends starting to like me, it's happened a lot. Its not the easiest thing but I get through it and luckily my friends have enough respect for me to not act on it because they know I'm in love with someone else. Because of my bad luck of this happening, yes, I'm worried about the guys at BYU-I, but I know that I will always stand my ground. They might have not found their Eternal Companion yet, but I have found mine. I'm not going to go on any dates where the guy doesn't know I'm taken and that I'm not looking for that person anymore. If I become friends with a guy that's like, "hey! lets get a group together tonight to hang out!" and he knows how I feel then I'll go, but I will by no means go on a date where the guy is looking for that special person and is interested in me, because that's not fair to them. I can't give them what they want...They need to go on dates with people who are still looking and hoping they'll find that person that's just for them.  I'm not that person.
                I know that there's always the chance that a guy could come along who won't take a hint, but I'll deal with that when and if it happens. Someone I love very much, you could say she's like a sister to me, was talking to a couple of guys who work with her and currently go to BYU-I. They told her that a lot of guys up there don't care if a girl is waiting for a missionary, they'll try anyway. They continued with saying that if they were interested in a girl who was waiting for a missionary, that wouldn't stop them. I understand how they feel because to them, its sometimes normal for  Missionary Girlfriends to decide they want someone else or decide it's not working out when they meet someone else. It happens a lot, but in all honesty...I am not normal and neither is me and Anthony's relationship. It makes sense if the girl they're interested in is flirting back and isn't as serious as I am but I honestly think that if a girl has made up her mind and knows where she stands, any guy who is interested should respect her decision. If not he'll just be wasting his time on something that's never going to happen. And hey, maybe someone might still try but they'll soon figure out that I'm not for them....That I belong with someone else. I have too much respect for people to let someone pursue me when I have nothing to give them in return.
                   Some of you are probably thinking, "yeah right, watch her find someone else." If you feel that way I can assure you that you're not going to watch me find someone else, you're going to watch me prove you wrong. I am so excited for the college experience and I can't wait to grow and learn more about myself, my testimony, make new friends and have the time of my life. One things for sure though. I'm going to make sure everyone knows where I stand... I met the love of my life 3 and 1/2 years ago and by no circumstances will I ever let him go :)I have one month until I start school..watch out BYU-I here I come!!